So i am still here.

Surpised huh?  I know that I am.

Sitting here at work, just had a big meeting.  it was rather boring.  the only silver lining was the talk of corporate bonuses, but they will not be paid until august.  so not really a silver lining after all i guess.

So I stole this from someone else's site, but i really like it, so i think its ok.

1. Old People- seriously, what is it with old people? They are just good for nothing. They move too slowly and cruise around in brand new BMWs at 20 miles per hour on the highway. Yeah- good for you Grandpa, you're real cool. Old people...they kill me.
   
2. Children- Practically the same as old people, save for the whole car thing. Kids are money/time-sucking demons. Why anyone would choose to burden themselves with children is just beyond me. This leads me to a sub-point: parents who complain to their kids that they're too selfish/lazy/irresponsible. News flash- who do you think taught them that this lifestyle was acceptable? Bingo- it's you. Congratulations- you're responsible for what's wrong with this world today.
   
3. Stupid People- I don't think I really need an explanation for this one. I just hate them.
   
4. Fat People- I know some of you are probably saying "aw, that's so mean". I have two things to say to you people: first of all, shut up. Second, I too used to be fat, have glasses AND braces, and look at me now. I'm as cool as all get out. If I can do it, why can't they? I think my point is clear.
   
5. Bitches- I feel terribly sorry for all members of the male species. They sure got the short end of the deal having to put up with girls and their shit all the time. I mean it doesn't really matter for me because I can say whatever I want to a girl, as I too am a girl (see point made on previous entry). But guys man- one little slip up and you're a "jerk" or a "bastard" or a "tool". Sucks to be them. And another thing- something I've noticed just recently, but I suppose must have always been there: why is it that girls expect you to read their minds? I mean what is that?? You know it's bad when I complain about it; I'm not even a guy. I like to believe that I'm not like this, as I've never been told otherwise, but that could just be because guys don't want me to think they're bastards. Who knows.
   
6. Ugly People- Ok I know people can't help it if they're ugly, blah blah blah, but that doesn't really help those of us who have to look at them. It may be mean, but hey- the truth hurts baby.
   
7. People who talk all the time- Ok I know some of you out there think I like to talk all the time, but the fact is it's just not true. I make friendly idle conversation, but I don't ever feel the need to be speaking all the time. It's just annoying.
   
8. Hicks- Going to school in College Station has exposed me to my fair share of hicks, and let me just say- I could go the rest of my life without meeting another one and die happy.
   
9. People who watch MTV- The one exception to this rule is if you fall between the ages of 10 and 15. Other than that, it's just pathetic. If you're going to watch TV, God forbid it be anything intellectually stimulating. Way to be losers.
   
10. Classes- College would kick ass if it weren't for these little bastards.
    
11. Indecisive People- I swear, these people kill me. And, oddly enough, for some reason I am perpetually surrounding myself with them. Seriously, if I had a nickel for every time I've had a discussion along the lines of: me saying "hey where do you want to eat?", "oh, I don't care, choose a place", "[me choosing a place]", "um yeah I'm not really in the mood for [place I chose]". HELLO?!? Why didn't you say that in the beginning? Why do you tell me you don't care, and then end up caring? Oh and the best part is when I respond "oh- ok that's cool- what are you in the mood for?" and I get a "oh whatever- doesn't matter". I can't even imagine what it's like for guys. This is why I hate facilitating shit. Although, accordinging to one of the lesser known sociologists in California, that is my "role" in group dynamic. Sucks for me.
    
12. People who have an opinion about EVERYTHING- Ok, so you don't like some policy an institution has? Save it. You think the commercial is stupid? Tell it to someone who cares. You don't think so-and-so (who, may I just add, is a complete stranger to you) deserves to have won a spot on the Wade Robison Project? I DON'T CARE. I mean really- why do you think I give a damn about what you think about that? If I cared what you thought, I'd ask. Simple as that.
    
13. "Light Sleepers"- Alright what the hell is up with these people? It truly boggles my mind when people say things like "I was exhausted but she was typing on the computer and it was keeping me awake" or "I was really tired but I couldn't go to sleep because he was watching TV". What is it with you people? It's not hard- if you're tired, go to sleep. It's not like people are setting bombs off in your room. Especially if you have to live with a roommate. You can't be annoyed because they don't drop everything the minute you decide to go to sleep. Honest to God these people annoy the hell out of me. Seriously- quit being a pansy and SUCK IT UP.
    
14. People who don't dress to their body- Ok, so to say I don't know much about fashion would be quite the understatement. However, I like to think I know what looks good. Not necessarily in a "oh that outfit is so cute" sort of manner, but more of in a "yeah ok that doesn't bother me" sort of way. That being said, what is it with people who obviously are not a size 4 dressing in those size clothes? I mean really- do you not own a mirror? I know you do, why the hell don't you use it? I get the whole "I'm just trying to be confident with who I am", but that doesn't mean you have to make some half-ass attempt to sluttify yourself. Have some dignity for Christ's sake. Inevitably these are the same girls who are constantly making out with their ugly ass boyfriends in public. Which leads me to my next point...
    
15. People who feel the need to be constantly making out in public- Alright, we get you got yourself a man. Despite the fact that he's ugly, annoying and more than likely would cheat on you at the drop of a hat, it's still quite a feat to achieve. This does NOT mean we want to see you two going at it all the time. I don't know what it is...like are you trying to make other people jealous? Because seriously sweetheart- that's sad (although I do know people who become embittered at seeing people hang all over each other...to this day I don't know why). No one thinks you're better than they are because you've got little to no standards. It's just a fact. Sorry.
    
16. Reckless Bikers- Right ok so I get that bikes are a popular way of commuting around campus. But seriously- is it necessary to ride them at top speed ON THE SIDEWALKS?? THAT'S WHY THEY HAVE SPECIALIZED "BIKE LANES" ASSHOLES. Next time someone tries to speed by me they're getting clotheslined. Let's hope it teaches them a lesson.
    
17. People who are always on their damn cell phones- Just to set the record straight, I do spend quite a bit of time on my phone, and I do enjoy getting the occasional phone call (not that most people I know actually put forth the effort to call me). That being said, I totally do not get the people who are constantly on the phone. It seems like every time I get out of a class, inevitably 2/3 of the people bust out their cells and start calling whoever they can think of, telling them all about the class they just got out of. What is this? Like you can't go an hour without talking to these people? Thank God I don't converse with anyone who has this problem.
    
18. People who give me the third degree- Alright those of you who have met me can attest to the fact that I am generally less than forthcoming about things I do and places I go. It's not so much I don't trust/respect the people who ask, I just don't like people to know things. What I don't get is people who continue to dog me even after I avoid their questions in the first place. What are you, the cops? Mind your own damn business and leave me alone. Quite frankly, if I wanted you to know where I'm going, I would tell you. Take the hint.
    
19. People who think the world revolves around them- I just don't get it. Seriously- what is it with people. The people you know, unless sadly sheltered, have lives outside of just you. Not everything they do or everything they say is addressed to you. I mean MY GOD. This drives me up the wall. Not only are people like this annoying, they also are made that much worse by inventing ridiculous problems. The only advice I can give these people (who would be remissed if they didn't take it) is PULL YOUR HEAD OUT OF YOUR ASS.
    
20. "Deep" People- This one really gets me. First of all, people who classify themselves as "deep" deserved to be kicked in the face. Second of all, just because you spend more time pondering the wonders of the universe than I do, it does NOT make you cooler than I am. I don't care about the epiphanies you come up with in your spare time. It's boring, and it doesn't impress anyone.
    
21. Hypocrites- Quite frankly I'm suprised I didn't think to list this one sooner. Out of all the things I hate, this could be the thing I hate most. I just don't get people who think they're so good they don't have to adhere to the standards they impose upon others. Just one giant walking contradiction. And, because I enjoy making myself suffer, I find I am invariably surrounding myself with these people as well. Man...it just kills me.
    
22. People with bad MP3s- Ok so the other day I was downloading some Story of the Year songs from Kazaa (totally cool band by the way- I recommend everyone check them out) and I couldn't help but notice an overwhelming amount of people sharing files that were masquerading as full songs, but in actuality were merely 30 second clips of the song accompanied with 3-5 minutes of silence. I mean SON OF A BITCH- what is wrong with people? Do they not listen to the songs they download? Bastards. My buddy Sarah and I had a good 20 minute discussion on this, and I still don't understand what the hell is wrong with these people. Luckily it's not too hard to figure out what files are fakes and which are real. It's just aggrivating.
    
23. People who list their playlists on websites- I happen to spend quite a bit of time in the computer lab on campus, and since it is not equipped with a peer-to-peer sharing program (e.g. Kazaa) I am forced to find other means of downloading and listening to songs. Usually, I hit up Google and can find a file someone has I can download. What gets me is these people that have their damn "Winamp Generated Playlists" listed. And they all end in .mp3, which confuses the search engine into thinking it's an actual downloadable file. This irritates me to no end. Like, who cares what songs are on your stupid playlist? NOT ME, BITCH.
    
24. People who sing off-key- Ok, I'm no Christina Aguilera (in more ways than one), but I'm not a terrible singer, by any means. I like to think that I can tell the difference between being "on pitch", and being "on Britney Spears pitch". However, what I don't understand is people who wouldn't know good pitch if it slapped them in the face, and yet still continue to think they're the next Barbara Striesand or something. Like, if you can hear waves, it's NOT a good sign honey. It's just not. The one exception to this rule is if the singer happens to be intoxicated. We all have our bad days.
25. Johnny-Come-Latelys- Right I think this needs some clarification: I don't really mind people who are slow to learn about things, or people who learn about things when the become 'in'. The problem I have is people who are this way, yet totally deny it. Let's take bands for example- people who think that because they started to like the band when they only had 1 video on MTV, it means they liked them "before they got big". This happens a lot with TV shows too. And it's just annoying. It's called denial people- deal with it.
    
26. People with one-way phones- Ok not to be sexist or anything, but I find this problem is gender-specific to girls. I've never known a guy to say "why haven't you called me lately???". But that's not to say they don't exist. Whatever. My point is, what is it with these people? If you want to talk, WHY THE HELL CAN'T YOU CALL ME??? It's called a "phone", not "molten lava". Pick it up and call if you want to talk. Like, is it a pride thing? Is it out of convenience? I just don't understand. Take some damn initiative.
27. The "Anti-Piracy" campaign- Right so I went to see Love Actually last weekend (I love you Andrew! Call me!) and before the previews they had this little spot wherein a stuntman explained how he worked hard for his job and people who pirate movies are in essence stealing from him, not the companies or the big actors. Ok- what the hell is this? I have an idea: how about instead of giving Ben Affleck 20 million dollars a picture, we distribute some of that to poor stunt guy, that way he won't mind that he's not getting my $6. This just pisses me off. Same thing with music stuff. Like I've seen some of these 'musicians' (and I use the term loosely) houses- if you have enough money to buy a room just for your damn shoes, you better believe I have no problem keeping my $20. Assholes.
28. Clay Aiken- Man, it's amazing how far mediocre can get you. Maybe he wouldn't annoy me so much if he weren't so ugly and stopped acting like a damn woman. Seriously- the guy has a more girly walk than I do, and I have a pretty feminine walk. That, he and his people are convinced he's God gift to singing. Then again, these people wouldn't know good singing if it ran them over, put it in reverse, and ran them over again. Shut up, Clay.
29. People who smell bad- Ok I understand that people can't smell good all the time. I get it. I'm talking about people who like purposely make themselves smell bad. Like choosing perfumes and stuff that just smell terrible.  I wanted to strangle myself. Actually I wanted to strangle her. But I digress. Then today this guy walked by me and he was like saturated in Old Spice or something. I was disturbed. Extremely. And almost sick. Seriously people- learn to keep it in check. It's not too much to ask.
30. Popup Ads- I just hate them. Especially when one site has like 15 of them on one page load, making it take 20 minutes to load. And now they're coming up with all these 'fancy' popups that load on the page you're looking at, and you're forced to watch because you can't close it without clicking on the damn ad and bringing up another window. Bah. It just makes me want to beat someone.
31. Shopping with (most) girls- Ok yes, I am a girl and yes, I do need to shop on occasion. However, I'm hardpressed to remember a time when I went shopping with another girl where I didn't just want to shoot myself. Or her. I hate to sell out the sisterhood, but seriously- what is it that makes you want to spend hours upon hours just browsing?? WHY?? And then they get all uppity when you say you don't want to go shopping with them. Like, bitch, if I wanted to waste 4 hours of my time looking at clothes or some such shit that I DON'T NEED, then I'd go. But until then, get off my ass woman. God. GOD.
32. Self Checkout Lanes- Right so I've never actually gone through a self checkout, but I don't really see the point. Like, hello? You're doing someone's job FOR THEM. How the hell is that more convienient for you? If my intel is correct, then it appears that there is one 'cashier' that watches 4 checkout lanes. That's his ENTIRE JOB. Seriously, if I were that guy, I'd spend my whole shift laughing at the suckers who are doing my job for me. I think my buddy Sarah sums it up pretty well with this statement "if i wanted to scan groceries, i would fucking work there". Amen.
33. Streaming media- Alright, so on Monday the new trailer for Spider-man 2 hit the internet. Through some sort marketing deal, Sony Pictures agreed to let Yahoo run it exclusively for the first few days. Unfortunately, Yahoo seems to only work with streaming media which, it seems, despite how fast your connection is, invariably ends up playing in a stop-and-go fashion. What the hell is this? Like, if I want to see the trailer, I want to watch the damn video- not see the occasional picture and some sound. This seriously pisses me off a lot. The same thing happened with the Charlie's Angels 2 trailer. I guess Sony has some sort of long-standing arrangement with Yahoo. I don't know why they don't just format it for Quicktime. So much less annoying. Whoever came up with streaming media should be forced to spend the rest of his life locked in a small room with the hosts of The View.
34. Cold Weather- Maybe living in Texas for so long has soured me on the whole experience, but honest to God I hate winter. I hate that I dread going outside. Usually I don't mind so much, except now that school is back in session, and I have to walk all over the place, it's just annoying. Seriously- if I wanted to live in a cold climate, I'd move to Alaska. Stupid winter.
35. Close-sitters- What is it with people? I mean really. Ok, so I know that I have a little bit of a problem when it comes to people invading my personal space, but it's not like I take it to psycho-level. The thing that annoys me is when you're sitting in class, your entire row is empty (save for you, of course) and a person just has to sit next to you. Now, don't get me wrong- I wouldn't mind if it were, say, any one of these gentlemen. Alas, I'm not that lucky. 9 times out of 10 it's some weird chick who likes to talk. A lot. Do I look like a friendly person? No. No I don't. Yes, I'm a bitch. No, I don't care. Stop sitting next to me.
36. People who can't speak- I'm sorry, but speaking with poor grammar just makes you sound stupid. I'm not joking. I correct people on their grammar all the time and get a "oh shut up Ashley- no one really cares about that". Well, I do, bitch- and now I, as well as others who are probably too scared to tell you, think you're stupid. Way to go. God. GOD. I'm not kidding- this is so irritating to me. And then there are the people who overcompensate for their lack of grammatical knowledge by using "smart phrases", like people won't notice. And, to their credit, most people are ignorant and don't notice you're wrong. But that doesn't mean they don't think you sound like an arrogant ass. Ass. Inevitably, these are the same people who are always misusing clichés, which just kills me. Whatever. I've got to stop this before I have a damn aneurysm or something.
37. Mis-Matched Couples- Ok so the other day I was walking to class and I noticed these two people making out next to a building (gross in and of itself, I know). As they seperate and return to walking, I notice that the girl is really quite pretty, and then, expecting at least a moderately attractive guy, to my horror I take a gander at what could best be described as Frankenstein's long-lost brother. Honest to God- it almost made me sick. At first I thought maybe the girl was rushing or something, but she looked sickeningly content with herself. It made me sad at first- like, this chick was so desperate for a validating relationship she went with the first thing she could find (shut up- you know that's why pretty girls go out with ugly guys- their personality can't be THAT great). Then, as I thought about it, it made me more and more angry. Like- what is this? Have some dignity, woman. Christ. I mean, I know I come across as a bitch on occasion when I don't give some guys the time of day, but seriously- I'd take that over being fucking Milquetoast. And if language like that offends you, I'm really fucking sorry. Just because finding someone worthy of dating is difficult doesn't mean you have to choose the path of least resistance. Grow a damn spine.
38. People who clap, cheer, or 'awww' during movies- Knock it the hell off. I'm serious. The only sounds I've ever made in response to a movie are a) laughing or b) the occasional "oh for the love of God". But I only use the last one when I get dragged to a stupid romantic comedy. And it's usually muttered under my breath. The point is- no one wants to hear your damn "awwww- oh my God that is so cute!!!" Stop it. Just stop it.
39. Waitpersons- Recently someone suggested that I add waitstaff on to my hate list. I was hesitant initially, mostly because I hadn't been out to eat in a while, but also because waiters/waitresses have to deal with a pretty large group of rude people on a daily basis. I thought about it some more, and said to myself "screw it". Really- people who work as waiters just annoy me. I get that your job sucks, but that of course begs the question- who's job doesn't suck? I mean, it's inevitable- the people I get are either really really attentive and always harassing you, or they're incompetent and never around. And, no matter how much you don't like them, you still feel guilty for not tipping them. Is it too hard to just come every once and a while and not be stupid? I don't think it's too much to ask. Stop ruining my dining experience. Assholes.
40. People who walk 3 abreast on sidewalks- I hate people. I mean honest to God- do you have to walk directly next to your friends ALL THE DAMN TIME?? I'm serious- that is like one of the most inconsiderate things ever. Like, why can't you drop back for a moment while people walk by, so as not to cause them to go off into the mud and get dirt all over the bottom of their pants? Next time I see people walking like this, I'm just going to move to the middle of the sidewalk. I'll get you yet, you sidewalk-Nazi sons of bitches.
41. Crossword Terrors- Ok, I'm not sure about other schools, but we have kind of an unspoken system at A&M- you work the crossword during class, and then leave it under your desk for the next person to be able to work on during their class. It's just polite. But seriously- I absolutely hate people who rip out the crossword puzzle and yet leave the rest of the paper there. It's just rude people. RUDE. If you're going to tear (see what I did there? with the title? terror...tear...er....it's...homynym...right) out the puzzle, you may as well take the whole paper. God. The nerve of some people.
42. People who wear rings on their wedding finger- Today I was watching the news (local news in College Station makes me sad) and they were recognizing the "Star Student of the Week" or some shit like that. The girl annoyed me anyway (when asked on how she stays successful, her answer was 'I just, put my priorities first you know...'- idiot) but I noticed she was a violater of one of my biggest pet peeves- wearing a ring on the third finger of her left hand. And, ok, they didn't include 'married at the age of 16' in her list of attributes, so I'm guessing it wasn't a wedding ring. Like, she has 9 other fingers, she has to put her ring on that one? I don't think so. Maybe it's wishful thinking on her part or something. Either way, knock it the hell off, moron girl.
43. "You can't taste it"- So, I really don't like onions. I mean, I like onion rings, but other than that, I can't stand them. What bothers me is when someone is making pasta or something, and they want to put onions in the sauce, and say 'oh well you can't even taste them- don't worry'. Hello? That doesn't even make sense. If you can't taste them, why put them in there in the first place? Sometimes I get the 'it just adds flavor' response. I don't even know how to respond to this. Like, ok, I don't like onions, but as long as it's just adding the flavor, it's fine. What the hell does this even mean? How can you not taste them, and yet they add a flavor? DAMN IT. People annoy me.
44. Fear Factor- How the hell is this still on the air? I'm not kidding. I love how good shows get cancelled all the time, yet shit like this gets stellar ratings. What is wrong with people? Why do they even call it 'Fear Factor' anyway? A friend of mine flipped through it the other day, and the challenge was to take bugs off a car winsheild with your mouth, and then run across and spit them in a bucket. Who is afraid of this? It has nothing to do with fear- it's just about doing gross stuff. The point is, stop watching shitty TV. If everyone does that, God willing, by the end of the year 'Fear Factor' and MTV shall no longer exist.
45. My CD Player- Ok, so when I'm walking around campus, I often like to listen to my CD player. Sometimes it's because I'm bored and have nothing better to listen to, but for the most part it's because it gives off 'the montage effect' which makes me feel cool. But lately, for some reason that remains unknown to me, it'll just shut off, right in the middle of playing. I mean, what is this? It's not like I turned off the anti-skip function and keep dropping it, because seriously- all it does is sit in my backpack. And, unlike someone (oh you know who you are) I don't have kick ass headphones that have a play/skip/volume function built into them. That means, if I want to get it to start again, I have to stop, open up my backpack, and fix it. Stupid machine. How am I supposed to feel cool with my faux montage, if I've got no tunes? God. Way to screw me over, Sony.
46. AIM- What is it about AIM that makes it kick you off right when you start talking to someone? Seriously. I leave my away message on for 7 hours with no problem, then the 30 minutes I decide to get on- boom. “Connection Interrupted”. Way to not make shitty products, AOL. It’s a glaring reminder of the reason you are not my ISP of choice. That’s right. Put that in your pipe and smoke it.
47. People who walk with their arms crossed- I'm sorry, you just look like a prissy bitch. And you can't use you actually being a prissy bitch as an excuse. Knock that shit off.
48. People with poor table manners- Ok, so I'm not the Queen of England. I have, on occasion, been known to slouch (sorry Mom), leave food on my plate, or shovel. Keeping this in mind, I also don't get on people who make the occasional dining violation. I mean, it's not like my mealtime chats consist of "so there we are, enjoying the concert, when all of a sudden Screechy McGiggles behind us starts -- wait, what is that? WHAT IS THAT? Is that your ELBOW? On the TABLE? Step away from the plate. No. NO. Do it now. And don't come back until you've joined the human race, asshat." I'm not running a finishing school, here. But is it so wrong to expect a least a decent amount of etiquette from people? Because really. It shouldn't be.

I have recently been thinking a lot about Xanga and my writing days of yore.

I have come to the conclusion that College Station was my muse.  When I was there, I had so much to write about, and so many things to say.  I was writing everyday because it was such a fantastic outlet for me.  But then I switched schools and while I kept up with this journal for a while, I steadily lost interest in writing.  I began to believe that nothing interesting was happening in my life and therefore it wasn't worth writing about.

I was wrong.  My life is important and I should try to write here every day because a record for the years to come would be nice to have...something that I can look back upon and smile about all the fond memories that I have made.

I wish I could go back to the day I really stopped writing, because I would push myself to keep up with it. 

I really don't enjoy my work schedule that I am on right now, I wish that it would change and that they would pay me more, and that I didn't have to go in as often. Ya, I think I would really enjoy that.

Did you know that I will be 25 in 4 months?  Isn't that crazy Xanga???  I feel like I am getting so old and wise beyong me years. :)  My dad said he was going to stop paying my insurance when I do turn 25 though...and after that the last tether that is anchoring to me to my parents will be cut.  I don't really know how I feel about that yet...my parents have always been a huge part of my life, and I know that they will continue to be there for me, it will just be weird not having them pay for things anymore...me being completely on my own..its like I am taking one more step away from them.

I have been listening to the Dixie Chicks a lot lately...I really like their new album..and no I didn't jump on the bandwagon after they won all those Grammy's...I have always liked them...they have just been my flavor of the week lately. I like how the triumphed over America essentially....all those redneck idiots out there who threatened them and whatnot...it was really dumb...she just spoke her mind and she gets horribly attacked from all sides.

Turns out she was right all along.  Stupid George Bush.  He really is annoying.  I can't wait for him to be out of office and out of our lives.   I really do hope that Hilary gets elected...or Obama, I am really impartial myself..just as long as its a Democrat.  No more Republicans...please!

Alright, I think I am gonna be done here...thanks for listening Xanga, as always, you are good at what you do. :)